Yesterday was one of those days where I was down and depressed. I don’t have these days very often but when I do it’s usually pretty bad. I was having a bad CFS/FM day and my body just would not allow me to do much. But even though I felt miserable, I still wanted to do and I was bored to tears.
I need something to do outside of this house. I keep telling my husband that I would like to get some type of job for just a few hours a week to give me something to do. I feel like I am wasting my life away and I’m not willing to give up and let this illness control me. He’s really against it because he thinks that I will just end up worse and will be bedridden again. If I could just find something for one or two days for just a few hours that would be ideal. I know those types of jobs are probably hard to come by, though. I also know that I cannot physically work anymore than that.
I was also considering volunteering at the local hospital, but with all of the germs I would probably be sick all of the time and would catch everything going around. I need a life again. I need something to do for me. Any suggestions?