I have recently noticed something new affecting me and my health. I have always been somewhat sensitive to loud noise, but lately I have started having panic attacks when I’m confined to a smaller area and there is a lot of noise, especially kids being around. I have had two very scary experiences over the past month that have left me wondering if I’m going crazy.
A few weeks ago we were at my mom’s house for my sister’s birthday and my parents have a very small house. My brother was there with his three little ones and my son was there. My sister’s son is grown. We were there maybe an hour and I had to leave. My nephew is very loud and he tends to be a screamer even when playing. I thought I was going to lose control.
Then last week we had company and the couple brought their two kids along. They played with my son in his room while my husband and the gentleman talked and his wife talked to me. I started to feel another panic attack coming on. I couldn’t tolerate all of the noise, all of the talking, etc. I couldn’t even tell you what was being said. I was gripping so hard onto my chair to keep from running out of the room. I have never been able to tolerate a lot of kids being around – it’s just not my thing, but this is worse. I kept looking at my husband trying to get his attention to look at me so that I could give him a signal that something was wrong, but he was too busy talking.
By the time they finally left, I was so miserable. I was shaking, almost in tears, breathing hard and miserable – completely exhausted. I’m afraid to even have my husband’s granddaughters here for an Easter egg hunt next weekend because of this.
My sleeping has really been off. I was awake until after 5 a.m. Sunday morning before I finally drifted off to sleep. My menstrual cycles are off too. I used to be so regular it was scary. I would typically always get my period at the same day of the month and even at about the same time. But now for the past several months my cycle has been off. I will either get my period every three weeks, or every five weeks. It will last either 4 -5 days or 8 days. It will either be extremely heavy, or extremely light. There is no normalcy anymore it seems.
My husband wants me to see the doctor because I have been treated for PMDD (Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder) but these panic attacks are new. It is not anything I ever experienced before.
I am hoping that by writing this post someone with a similar situation will be able to share what they did to help these attacks. I can’t just say no more visitors with kids allowed!
I find the panic attacks are only happening in smaller settings, like my mother’s home and my home. Yesterday my son had a birthday party at a local amusement center (kind of like Chuck E. Cheese) and I was fine there.
Today on my other website, Chronic Health Blog, I am featuring Panic Disorders as part of my Manic Monday series. You can read more about panic disorders and panic attacks at the link below: