As I had posted the other week, I had a bad two week flare of CFS. I went back to work and I was starting to feel better. And then I woke up last Sunday and I wasn’t feeling well. I had started doing my housework on Saturday and I have been trying to split the housework up into two days so that I wouldn’t wear myself out. With just coming out of a flare I have been very cautious in what I’ve been doing. So Sunday I had finished cleaning my living room and I started working on my son’s room and all of a sudden I couldn’t move very well and I started feeling really sick. I sat down on my son’s bed for a while and got a hold of myself and then finished his room. After that I was bedridden the rest of the day. I am only working Mondays now so the next day I got up for work and I was feeling worse than I felt on Sunday. I was afraid to call off work, however, since I had just been off previously for two weeks. I told my husband it’s just one day, it’s just five hours I would push through it somehow.
I looked absolutely horrible, my eyes were so swollen, that no amount of makeup helped and I really had to push myself through the shift. Needless to say, I came home Monday and have been in bed ever since with the exception of my doctor’s visit on Wednesday. I had called the doctor’s office on Tuesday because I knew what I was feeling wasn’t the normal CFS feeling. I have a sore throat, my lymph nodes in my neck, left armpit and groin are very sore, I have a headache so severe that Oxycontin isn’t even touching the pain, and I can tell that my body is fighting something.
The doctor is pretty positive that I have mononucleosis even though I have had it before because all of the symptoms fit, including the swollen spleen. The other problem I am having that I always have when I get sick with any type of virus is that my bladder will act up so on top of being extremely exhausted, I have to keep running to the bathroom every few minutes to urinate. I am so miserable, it is unreal. We’re waiting to get the blood test results back but she said she would be surprised if it didn’t show mono. Here’s the thing with mono, though. Once you have mono, your body is suppposed to build up an immunity to it but apparently mine hasn’t.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I keep falling further and further down a well and there’s no way back to the top.