I have been severely sleep deficient lately and I keep wondering how much longer I can go before I crack up. I have had sleep disorders for years but over the past several months the hours of sleep I get have become fewer and fewer. I am now going entire nights without ONE MINUTE of sleep. If I do sleep, I might sleep acouple of hours. I can’t sleep now during the day to make up for the lost sleep because my son is on summer vacation. I can take little “cat naps” while he is here but nothing major. He’s used to my rest routine and is very well behaved.
At least when he was in school if I didn’t sleep at night I knew I could try and make up for a little sleep by sleeping after he would leave for school. Now I’m left to go all night and now all day without any sleep.
My son woke me up about 8 a.m. on Monday morning. So from 8 a.m. Monday through what is now 4:20 p.m. Tuesday as I write this, I have had a total of less than 30 minutes of sleep. I collapsed Tuesday afternoon but only had a chance for a small cat nap. The last time I looked at the clock it was 2:30 p.m. I remember having a dream and my son woke me up at 3 p.m. because he wanted me to take him out to play.
My life is falling apart due to my lack of sleep and I find my husband becoming aggitated by my mood and other issues due to lack of sleep. I am even exercising (walking/riding bikes) and that’s not helping me to sleep better.
Sleep aids no longer work for me because I am immune to them all. The only thing sleep aids do is leave me feeling hungover but they don’t put me to sleep. During the day I feel like I can barely make it but at night it seems like my body comes alive and my brain doesn’t shut down and sleep refuses to come. It isa horrible feeling to already have ME/CFS and then on top of it to go days with little sleep.
I’ve tried everything under the sun to get to sleep and nothing is working. Going to bed early doesn’t help. I just lie in bed for hours tossing and turning because it is usually after 8 p.m. when my body comes alive.
Does anyone have any suggestions? I fear I’m going to end up either: a) having a nervous breakdown, or b) in the emergency room.