People will often ask me how I get through each day with these illnesses. It has taken me a long time to learn how to cope, but I am finally getting it I believe! Of course, I am human and I have days where I will feel sorry for myself, ask God, “Why me?”, and not want to talk or associate with anyone.
When I first became sick, and even up to a year or so ago, I knew I was sick and was different from other people, yet I still tried to go on like I wasn’t. If I really had to admit it, take it easier, believe it, then it would be so – does that make sense? I am very independent, controlling (yes, I can admit that), and ambitious, so even though my brain wants to do a lot, my body will stop me. I have to find other ways to challenge myself now.
But for the most part, I try to keep upbeat and positive about the whole experience. What finally happened to me that gave me insight?
I just decided that I have these problems, for right now they are here to stay – I have to accept that and it is something that I can’t change. Like it or not, they are here to stay until a cure is found. I am this way for a reason – I think that God has a bigger plan for me than I will ever know and I believe it is to help others. So if I can use my diseases as a way to spread the word, raise awareness, and help others learn how to cope, then it is worth it.
I also want my son to see that you never give up. He truly keeps me going as well and I want him to grow up knowing that even though his mommy is different than his friends’ mommys, he will always be able to say that I was not a quitter and that I loved him with all of my heart and taught him to never give up or give in.
It is hard for me to admit my weaknesses, especially on a web blog where thousands of people will see. But in order to cope, heal, move on, I have to do it for me.
If you are suffering as well with chronic illness, or any other types of problems, please feel free to email me, post a comment, let me know how you cope. Take care and make it a wonderful day!