We all were put on this earth for some reason. Even when we are feeling our worst with CFS, Fibromyalgia, IC Disease, or whatever the illness may be, you are meant to be here.
Knowing this is what has gotten me through a lot of days – that and having my son. My life did not turn out at all how I expected or planned it to, but there are some things we just have no control over.
I was told back when I first became ill that I should never have children. I was having a lot of severe pain issues with my back and it was very weak due to the type of work I did. My doctor told me that my back would probably never take a full pregnancy. He told me that if being as ill as I was didn’t cause me to miscarriage, my back problems would.
Of course, like any young woman, I was upset but I accepted it and tried to make the best of things. But little did I know back then what was in store for me. I did end up getting pregnant, not on purpose, but I knew it was meant to be. I made it through the pregnancy, and my health worsened afterwards, but he has been worth it.
I really think I was given the opportunity to be a mother so that I wouldn’t give up. The past few years have been extremely difficult for me and I think God knew what was in store and knew that I probably wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for my son. My son has given me reason to get up many days when I otherwise would not have. He brings joy into my life that I truly needed and he is really a miracle. He’s the child that never was to be – he’s my purpose in life.